I am afraid of change. I am excited to go to college, but I am afraid of being away from my friends and loved ones. This is a rational fear to have because I am very close with my parents and siblings and I have been living with them my whole life. Having faith in God can help me get through this because He reassures me and gives me confidence that I will be able to get through this fear, as He has done for me countless times before. I also have to know that my mom will always just be one call away and I can always visit her. Just by hearing her voice she will give me the confidence to overcome my fears, branch out and make friends, and succeed in my studies in college. By remembering these influences, I will be able to overcome this fear.
What I am most afraid of right now is being accepted into the college of my choice. I have applied for my top 3 colleges about a month ago and I have still not heard back from any of them. I know that I need to give time and wait but it still gives me fear that I might not be taken in and rejected. My family can help me get over this. When I start to doubt myself and start to doubt getting into any college they reassure me. They encourage me and help me through this rigorous time in my life. I also need to know that I should never be afraid because God is with me and anything that looks impossible he makes seem possible. I should never be afraid of anything because I know I have people there to support and help me along the way.
Right now I am afraid of college and the choices that come with college. I am afraid to leave everything that I have known all my life. I am also afraid that I will make the wrong decision on which college to go to. I think that these fears are rational to have because it is such a life changing decision. I believe that my friends, family, and God can help me get over some of these fears. God can play a big role in helping me choose the right path to go on.
There is one thing that I am very afraid of right now. This is leaving my friends and my high school. Brother Rice has done so much for me. It has actually changed my life and has molded me into the man I am today. I have made so many friends that I honestly never knew I could make. I used to be a really shy guy, but Brother Rice has changed that. I have become way more outgoing and I truly feel I mean something to others. I have become a leader to my peers. This is something that I take so much pride in. I was able to lead a Kairos and change the lives of some people I never really knew.
Just as Mary was confused and scared, I am as well. I really don’t know how I’m going to adjust to losing all my friends. I basically have to start over. This is definitely a rational fear and is one for many high school seniors around the world. My family can help me get over this fear, assuring me that it will be fine and that college will be even better than high school. Most importantly, I have to help myself get over this fear. I have to close the yearbook and move on. My high school experience, my school, and my friends will always be a part of my life, so I don’t have to forget about it, I just have to keep living life to the fullest.
There is just one big thing that I am holding in my heart at the moment. I have a very big decision to make and I’ve been thinking about it all the time. Its one of the biggest decisions I’ll ever make in my entire life and I need to make it soon. Mary’s courage to say yes to the unknown is helpful to me because that is exactly what I need to do as well. I need to decide whether or not to do something I’ve never done and Mary’s courage motivates me and shows me what good can come out of it.
Right now, I am very afraid of the future and what it has in store for me. It feels like I’m i’m at the peak of a mountain top, overlooking a grand valley to which I cannot see. As a highschool senior, I’m pressured to figure out what I want to do for the rest of my life, and I’m still not sure what I want to do. However, I find comfort knowing that there are thousands of other students just like myself throughout the United States, so this fear is certainly rational. I just have to trust that my many years of schooling and all my life experiences have prepared me for whatever the next chapter of my life has to throw at me.
I often find myself struggling to compete with those around me, and can easily become self-conscious of my own talents, skills, and capabilities. I have pushed myself in my academics, athletics, and activities for my entire life and have done well, yet I find there is someone always better. I finally have my greatest game in volleyball, and my teammate just had his fifth. I attain a great ACT score after an entire year of trying, yet my friends have a point or two higher. Despite how trivial these issues are, they still affect me. This is where I begin to find my own favored status in God’s eyes. No matter how down on myself I can get, and no matter how deep of a rut I have fallen into, I know God has something stored up ahead for me. I remind myself to applaud not only my friends and family for their hard work, but to applaud myself along the way, too. God is proud of me in all that I accomplish, and my favored status in His eyes is unchanging.
In my life, there is not much to be afraid of except the unknown. Because I will be going to college soon, I can’t help but worry about the future. There is no way for me to know for sure that I am making the right decisions regarding where to go and what to study. These fears are widespread and rational because most seniors have them, as do many adults. I believe that the best way to get over these fears is to remember that everything is going according to God’s plan. He knows what is best for us, so, like Mary, we must say “yes” and trust that he will watch over us and guide us.